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What is left in friendship

when it's not about you and me..

that we can lift-up our hip

and you count on me as 1,2,3

What is left in the goddam life

when it does involve me and u...

so that we can stay together

and I count on you as 4,3,2

So many people, so many minds

when all are together its a meeting of dumbs

and when we celebrate in our friend's party

we kick hard on them to give b'day bumps!

Life is full of colours and baloons

and we can see our future brighter soon

as we swim together in a lagoon

and we chill & shout & say...KABOOM !!

This is it...this is the moment,

that we mingle and spend

to make our environment sweet and affable

and forget the past which way ago went...!!!

rains make me emotional......

I feel the rain dripping right on my shoulder,
as if some one is calling me over
and trying to say something to me
which gets me colder and colder.

Sometimes I presume it is a starting of an end,
and the rain wants me to send
a message, rather, an alarm
to get off the wrong path and descend

On the other hand, I have a notion
that it says me to use my emotion
and judge what is right and wrong,
and then decide the course of my action.

What is good, what is bad,
i can scarcely understand
cuz the language and tone of the rain
is making me crazy and mad.

Donno what message it carries,
and what all memories it buries
Donno in which direction it leads
and tell its messsage to any Tom, Dick & Harry.

But 1 thing is for sure,
it is only the rain which can cure
and lessen tour sorrows and worries
and makes our heart sweet and pure

the rain and me..!

my words....my creation...

Are there some valid approaches,

to the phase I'm going through

or is it a bad timing for me

that I can't even say it to you

I try to be happy from outside

but no 1 bothers to peep-into myslf

that how much my heart is hollow

and how much I'm being an elf.

The heart dies a slow death

it has regrets  and so it starts to feed on meth

'cuz when no 1 is there to follow,

the only option is to drink your own sorrow

We are all artists in one of a kind

who performs in its own way

and when we find no companionship,

we no more remain happy and gay

But still...life and lusture also teaches

that success is for those who itself preaches

,his duties, his courage and his quality time

bcoz no one knows when life shatters like the sand in beaches

People....Love.....categorised

Is is not fair that you don't love the person who actually loves u...but u run for those who have absolutely no feelings for u...We can do anything to get him/her, but miss the opportunity of seeing what is right near us, what might be meant for us.. The first thing which normally people see in another person is his/her appearance and beauty..baad me inner qualities ka number aata hai...For that matter, even I fall in the same category to be very frank. But I keep on asking this question and never get a direct answer. Also we know that looks can be deceptive...but we kind of ignore this universal truth as well & go deaf n dumb in love..not even knowing if he is THE ONE for me or not !! 
For some people, love never existed in total as they have already considered themselves as "not-so-beautiful" or "ugly" and never looked for a person because they think low about themselves. If you do not love yourself, how can others possibly love you? How can you get the 1 for yourself when you yourself do not know who you are and what are you capable of...Some of my friends tells me that I am not worthy of 'that guy' or I am just not as beautiful as the other nice looking girls or someone has even mentioned that I am not intelligent as others and guys will shoo me off...All Crap..!! Why do we bother so much..or if at all it is so, why can't we do something to overcome it and be happy? But we can do neither this nor that..silly huh! You gotto give a chance for the other one to appreciate you and find something which you also never knew about yourself maybe...who knows. Stop expecting love from anyone will not stop the feeling or dreaming of being in love with a nice girl/man, you cannot let die your whims and fancies.
The other category of people are even more funny, who consider love as mere Time Pass (TP- in short). These category of people are day-by-day increasing so much that very less number actually knows what is true love all about. All the daily soaps, TV, media has impacted a lot on such people to the extent that they are even ready to lose their virginity just for fun and getting some good memories. What memories do u get in such things where your self dignity is obnoxious and questioned by society? We tend to forget that we live in a society which is still not that open to accept such rapid changes in the youth. Western culture is way too different than ours and making it a hybrid kind of a culture will take our Indian culture to a slow demise! TP-baazi is ok till the extent you do not cross certain limits and you call it as an experiment or what not. I'm not saying that such things are not good at all, but not at the cost of someone's self respect and loosing control over yourself.
And some crazy people fall into the strangest category where they have found their true love but do not realise it and let go so easily that you just cannot make it up again forever. Just because of some small misconception it triggers to a massive fire that cannot be stopped by anyone. There is no meaning of love if we cannot trust the other one and make such things happen. This is what scares people most even those who have never experienced love. I have found out that most of the singles have a fear of break-ups! And so they cannot risk their life for this and finds a safe passage of not loving or being loved by someone. Some people have a fear of attachment and feel the other person will just go and never come back again which may ruin his/her life forever..If you are in love, bear the risk and be strong to face any consequences that can happen in future, why do we worry of something that has never happened and might not happen at all which may cause severe mental and physical pains.
In a nutshell....we always have to lose something to gain something as nothing in this world comes for free..!!! Just need to know yourself even better, accept our faults and let time decide what is good or not..we just have to take care of today and that is why it is called A PRESENT..!! :)

uske baad.......

Some of us got up at around 10pm, so we decided to wake everyone up and have dinner and go back to sleep. Sakshi, Ronit and I started looking for what is to be ordered for dinner from a menu card which was kept in the drawer of a side table. Of the 10 of us, 5 were pure veggies (including me, but I ate eggs) so we had to consider that as well. Finally, we ordered a Greek salad, Spanakorizo (spinach rice cooked in olive oil), a sea food and soup (for all) and then went to wake up the rest sleeping beauties.
After our healthy and somewhat tasty food, we were just aimlessly sitting and chit chatting and also making plans for tomorrow's site-seeing. Preeti, Anirudh, Sonam, Lakshay and I decided to go out and have a look on the street as we were very keen to atleast go out and explore aas-paas ki jagah...whereas the others dozed off again. The weather was pleasant and was lighting throughout the way as if it was welcoming us, the street shops made us remember 'Kamla nagar market' and 'Janpat' but the only thing was that these shops were much more costlier than Delhi's....(of course..), the ever-enjoying people were so warm and jolly that it made us think as if we were the residents of Athens. Anyways, while we were roaming, we found a stall where a man around 40-50 years was sitting idly with pencil in his hand and a canvas. It was then we came to know that he is a free-hand sketch artist and drew pictures of people on request in less than an hour. The person has to sit near him on a stool which was kept there and he will draw the picture of him/her then and there which costed 10euros. Preeti liked this thing and wanted to go for it, Lakshay agreed to it..(goshh..the worst part of relationships is to always ask permission from your boy/girlfriend...), so she paid him the money and sat in front of him. The person's name was Garry and his expert hands were clearly visible, it was as if he knew Preeti and regularly saw her each day. Thanks to her that we were excited Garry drawing Preeti's picture.
"Wow yaar, mereko bhi picture banwaani hai", Gia said to me.
"Jaa, tu bhi karaa le"
"Arre Garry mana kar dega teri photo banane se..", Anirudh poked Gia (He always find ways to poke her...and Gia gets ignited..which in turn excites him even more..huh)
"Tum bhi kuch khas handsome nahi ho..huh", Gia retorted..and Anirudh gets excited
"Maine tumse pucha"
"Huhh/..."
My heart came to a sudden THUD...when I just turned my neck to my right and............I saw HIM..!! It was as if the whole world conspired me to meet him (and also I wanted to see him desperately...lol..)
Even better....was... "Hi Aisha", his sweet voice came near and whispered in my ears
I immediately turned back and saw the same cute-handsome guy standing next to me. (AIIIYOOOO.....happy as ever...)
"Heya..You, where, why, how???", I stupidly bombarded questions to him...I didn't even know his name yaar... :(

...contd

....In flight we were served salad and bread and a full cream-nicely whipped-super hot coffee....I felt that coffee was even better than that of CCD's, seriously...
"Excuse me lady...", Ronith said. AAhh,...we were all waiting for it....lol..'jahaa dekhi naari, wahi aankh maari' ...he was having a nice time watching those sexy-short skirt-fully makeuped  airhostesses. Ab usko chance maarna tha, which was sure he would do.
"Yes sir, how may I help you?", asked a smart looking airhostess. He was constantly srtaring at this 1 since she greeted him when we entered the plane, but was finding an exact time to break the ice.
"What's your name?"...God what a crazy-head pagal
"Misha, sir", she said polietly
"Misha, can you get me extra sugar please?"
"Sure sir, in a minute", she finds 1 packet of sugar in her crate, "Here you go"
"and and Misha", he said...Offfoo, what a jerk he is....anyways, we were having a gala time with he flirting with her. "What time will we reach Greece?", staring at her....
She had to attend another passenger and it was visible that she was getting irritated by his constant poking. She saw Ronith's boarding pass turned upside down on his lap. She picked it up and showed him the arrival time and went away. Lol...we were laughing like hell and he got embarrassed but still he managed to hide his embarrassment from us. We giggled so much.
Having infinite fun n frolic, we finally reached Eleftherios Venizelos International Airport in Athens. 
YIPPEEE.....all of us suddenly started shouting and the excitement was far more visible than it actually should. The interior of that airport was out of the water, so ethnic, so beautiful, "nice...very nice", Preeti exclaimed giving a wink to me. We came to the baggage counter to collect our respective bags, and it was taking lot of time, Preeti and I were talking, when I just rolled my eye to look at the ambience of the airport.....and saw HIM standing on the other side of the conveyor belt, looking at me, I am sure he was looking at me since long....(Isssshhhhh...). When I looked at him, he gave a silent wink to me, to which I smiled at him and I turned my face to Preeti.....trying to see him from side angle..
Gia's uncle was standing there waiting for us outside the gate. But that Miss Hurry,....uff...she didn't find uncle...., so restless is she...looking here and there...and also confusing us. Finally uncle caught her and took us to his resort "El Dorado". It was a 2hour drive from airport to resort in a big-husky SUV. Mr.Bakshi (Gia's uncle) showed us places which we crossed by on the drive...so green and scenic. Ohh!!...I totally forgot to call mum. She must be wondering...I asked uncle to stop by somewhere in Phone Booth so that I can call my mumma. So, generous of him, he gave his own cell phone to me.
"Hello mumma, Aisha here", I spoke in loud voice as everyone was shouting inside
"Hi beta, how was your journey? Did you all reach safely?", mumma looked tensed..of course she must be.
"Yes maa...all is well...will call you later as I am using Gia's uncle's phone"
"okk...have fun and take care. bye", I could feel the calmness in her voice now
"Bbbye ma", I said and hung up the phone.
"Thank you so much uncle", I was really thankful to him for the phone call as well as he also made this program work.
"Don't mention it", replied uncle
The whole drive was pleasant, new place, new sites, new people.....ohh people...Almost forgot where did that cute 1 go?? Shit I forgot about that totally....but, ab kya kar sakte hai....chodo....
Reached the resort. The location was ecstatic, near a beach....what else do I want....beach beach...and beach.... Preeti looked at me, smiling, as she knew how much I like beaches....instead how much we both liked beaches. The worst part for her, Lakshay fears water...he enjoys sitting on sand but not inside beach. But atleast I have her company...the best part for me... :P hehe. The room had 2 single beds, 1 kichen, 1 bathroom and a nice looking balcony. Pretty descent and spacious as wel... It was around 6.30pm here in Athens (10pm in New Delhi). Since we all were having jet-lag from this approx. 6hrs flight journey, so we decided to take a nap, have dinner, roam around nearby (if possible) and call it a day. We went to our respective rooms and caring about just nothing, we just threw ourselves to the soft-fluffy-silk like milk-bed....and offff....!! 

A lovestory....my way...

Listening to love stories always makes me excited ....gathering different people's view on love, commitment, relationship, lust and many more as if I was doing a survey...It always...always brings a smile on my face ('cuz its a new story of love altogether for different people as no 2 people are same and have same thinking naa....! :) I have always wanted my lovestory to be as special as any other person's that I will do this and that....make cards, gifts, send love letters and talk endlessly with the one I love the most...! But I also have a flipside view that, this love and all is nothing but fantasy and i can't find myself placed in a 'relationship' status. I find it beautiful to look life with someone else's eyes but I always hide myself from falling in love...cuz its FALLING.....totally....

So I have decided to let it be in my dreams....which can be translated by my keyboard in my blog....as it has somewhere become my bestie....I love writing when I am in a very calm and free mode.

I dont want my story to be boring...but exciting and bit simple.

My story starts not here.....but a place which is as beautiful as I am....haha....!! Well I would like it that way which satisfies the writer (ME) the most...hehe :P ;)

OKOK...serious mode.....!

The story has 2 places involved....but 1 heart.

"I am leaving mumma..", I was in too much hurry as my final terms just ended which means end of my graduation....and it was a commencement of a fun time with college friends, might be the last one with them. Our gang of 10 (biggg one....) were planning to go for an international vacation. For our good luck, Gia's uncle had a resort in Athens and had good contacts with the traveling lines of Greece so that we could get some rebates in air tickets...He has been living in Athens from past 10 years. Gia is one of our very good friends since college. We could actually see the plan working so everyone was so excited and looking forward to it. After exams ended, we googled on Greece, destinations, sea beaches, site seeing,food...just about everything whatever we could grasp to make this vacation a success. We distributed duties so that nothing is left to be seen in this 2weeks trip. 

"Aisha, do we have to come to airport alongwith you people?" 

"Oh...nono maa....will manage it and let you know when we arrive in Greece.", I replied instantly

"As you say. Have you taken your passport, money and everything? "

"Yes mum. The cab has arrived. Gotto go now. Will miss you and papa. Byee, tc"

"Have fun. Bye", I could see the happiness as well as tension in maa's eyes as I was going for the 1st time to foreign and managing things myself...but I was too excited to leave, that I cared not much.

We booked 2 scorpios as luggage was much as well the strength of members.

"Aisha, common hurry, we might be late.", Gia retorted.

"Arre haa yaar, let me put my luggage backside." Gawwd, why is she always in a hurry..?

"OK LETS GO........Greece, here we come", all shouted out loud. It was so soo exciting.

On the way from Noida to IGI, 5 of us who were in other cab, were playing antakshari and all, to my surprise, all were in sync while singing (it never happened before....haha...I am so particular about singing yar...). Anirudh and Sakshi were totally engrossed when it came to romantic songs...of course, they were in love...a couple from past 3 years. So they were into their own world...jab bhi mauka milta...tharki kahi ke....atleast place to dekh le na jaha wo hai abhi....huh....but anyways they are made-for-each-other types, just soo adorable. They met at hard rock cafe in Delhi where it was Love-At-First-Sight especially when the song came 'You'r beautiful' by James Blunt. They decided to have a walk on the empty street....chatted all night long. What Sakshi tells me is that Anirudh sung the most romantic songs of all times for her and she just felt so happy, not disturbing his mood (and also not letting him know thst she was a pathetic singer), and they both calls it 'A Walk To Remember'. That was the moment when they fall in love and there was no need to give a relationship proposal as it was clear in their eyes....Sooo romantic.... Sometimes I am jealous of them...lol...happens Aisha,...happens. But this is just not it...we have another couple...pehla pehla pyaar hai ..... :), Lakshay and Preeti.... they were in another cab. Seriously saying, I wanted to be in their cab..... but they were already full.... Preeti is my best friend of all times, and have known her since past 4 years...infact it was I who brought both of them close...feel so happy now... Anyways, did all sorts of masti and finally reached to T3 terminal. This terminal was a WOOW...seriously. The best part of this was its inside beauty, totally Indian, blended in high technology. Our flight (Jet Airways) arrived at 2pm as scheduled...and we stupid girls were showing so many emotions at a same time that other passangers were doubtful if our insanity...but..huh..., who cares...lol. 

Suddenly near the exit gate, I realised that I left my handbag in the CCD counter while having coffee...Ohh shit....why am I always careless....papa would kill me....shit...

"Guys, I forgot to take my handbag at CCD, you move, I'l just come asap.", I was too tensed to say 1 more word..

"Oho Aisha, are you nuts? Why did u leave your purse there? Now you will be left behind. You are such an idiot...blaah blaah...", Gia shouted..(as expected....crazy girl). They all boarded the bus which took them to plane. I rushed upstairs as quick as possible...didn't want to miss this most awaited tour of ours. I went straight to the CCD counter and to God's grace, they kept my purse with them....safely. I thanked them to the core and gave them Rs.20/- for their kindness (now I think, kam dia tha tha kya? :P ). As I returned to the exit gate, I saw the last bus was taking Greece passengers and closing their gates, I hurried with purse in 1 hand and boarding pass on another not caring about how my hairs were messing and all...I was almost about to miss the bus when a foreigner, by accident, caught my hands and pulled me inside.....Ohh...finally, I was in. I turned to the guy who saved me from missing my flight, he looked very nice and pretty descent in check-blue colored shirt and denim jeans.....well, I thanked him and he replied 'my pleasure'. His smile was vibrant and sweet....he was so cute, I continuously looked at him till he got vanished in the crowd of people going in the plane, I wanted him to look back, but hmmm, he didn't. So, here we come, it seemed as if Jet Airways was eagerly waiting for me and fly off to Greece. My seat was in middle with Gia and Antara and don't know why I was anxious in knowing where that cute foreigner was sitting. Anyways, I was trying to put my baggage up in the space provided for bags, when again suddenly he came and helped me put that into the cabin. I turned and found him..(wow....he is sooo cute na.. ), thanked him again and again he replied with same sweet smile. Passing by, he just asked my name, "Aisha", "and yours?" well, till then he went further to his seat. To my other surprise, Gia showed concern for me and asked if I was ok or not, she didn't scream. Well, that was a good sign. The flight finally took off without any delay and we were all set for our approx.3131miles or 6-1/2hrs journey to Athens...Splendid. The flight was huge boeing and also had mini TV screens on the back of every seat in which we saw many movies, hindi and english. The best part of the trip....wel...yes, u guessed it right, my constantly looking back to find 'him' and his smile. And of course friends ke saath masti and all....I missed Preeti's presence, wanted to tell her what was going on with me...but she was too busy with her new-boyfriend that I kept it to myself (pretty hard for me to keep such feelings away from Preeti's knowledge...).